Week 1: Introduction
I hate meetings. I hate Higher Power. I hate you. I hate anyone who has a recovery program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death and suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself. I am the disease of addiction-alcoholism, drugs, eating disorders, and more. I will kick your ass. That's me!! I have killed millions and I am please. I don't care if you lose your freedom. I don't care if you lose your health or trust or any other damn thing, because I don't care about you.
But I love to pretend. I love pretending that I am your friend and lover. Remember in the beginning, when it was fun? How you could always count on me to deliver the feeling that you were looking for? I have given you comfort, have I not? I am so cunning, baffling, and powerful, that you really don't stand a chance.
So what's going on in your life? Are you losing your family, your job, or your freedom? What's your PO's name? Are you peeing in a little cup? Are you having a hard time finding a job or a place to live because of me? Did you really think I give a damn about you?? All I care about is your being my servant. I need to be fed to survive. And survive I will. Right???
How about you? Do you have what it takes to shut me up? It takes work. It takes effort to work a program. Your program, your meetings, you Higher Power.
For the time begin, I will life here quietly. You don't see me, but I am growing bigger than ever. When you only exist, I live. When you live, I only exist. But I am here...and until we meet again I wish you continued death and suffering.